Lee.Poetry

Ever since that night  of our joining into one flesh, I have been tossing and turning in my sleep. My actions have conflicted  with my beliefs.  The shadows in the dark are pointing fingers of accusations at me. The voices in my head have criticized me to insanity.  Falling in your trap of seduction  I allowed you to defile me, in the entanglement of your web. I was pure and ripe! I never allowed you to pluck the fruit. Going beyond 90 days-a whole 2 years passed. Even after following all these rules, instead of wedding bells, all I got was rejection.  I fall asleep on wet pillows.  My shatterd dreams have paralyzed my body. Life goes on for you! You are sleeping well! How do you remain so unaffected? I wish you had put a knife through my heart instead and killed me officially. Death would be better then living as a breathing corpse. His words still ring in my ears; "If a man's goal was to harvest the fruit, even if you make him wait for 30...

I am afraid to speak Lest I say something wrong. I am afraid to smile Lest I break the spell So I am going to stand here And watch you. I will watch you smile And memorise the way that you look. I will listen to your laughter And record its sound. I will watch you when you are happy And my heart will fill with joy, It will burst. I will watch you when you are sad And my eyes will fill with tears. I will watch you  When you are angry And even then I will not move. I want to know you I want to see all your moods. I want to feel your every emotion  There is not a single thing I want to miss about you. I want to hear your heart beat Feel the blood racing through your veins. I want to be inside you Know you there as well as out I want to know  Everything about you.